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There are 3 new picture posts--make sure you scroll down to see what Emily found yesterday

More pics...

Auntie Kristi, Emily and me

Cousins!  

Cute little birthday boy Tanner and Emily!

My baby in her robe...

I found my feet!

Heart Stealer

Okay, so to be totally cheesy--I was walking through Target the other day and I saw a home decor piece that read "a baby fills the place in your heart that you didn't know was empty."  Totally.

Grandma and Grandpa Johnson

Grandma and Grandpa Johnson came into town to see Emily in mid-February.  For those of you who don't know, Brian's family lives in Oregon (except for Holly who lives in Fullerton).  I used to get sad for Brian because I knew how hard it was for him to leave his family when he was moving to California before we got married.  Now, I get sad for Brian because we have Emily here and they don't get as much contact with her.  I guess it isn't all sadness, I feel bad too because it is probably 90% my "fault" that we live in California.  I could ramble on and on about this, so to save you from all of that---I just wanted to share that we did get to see them and they had such a good time getting to know Emily.  Emily can sometimes be a little "rude" around "new" people.  She is demonstrating that in the picture with Grandma Johnson!  However, by the end of their 4-day stay---she was loving them--especially since they were the ones with the bottles!  They offered to watch her 2 days while they were visiting and that was nice not to have to spend the money at daycare---not to mention the invaluable time they got to spend with Emily.  

like no other

I am tired.  There is absolutely no other way to describe how I feel.  All last week I was struggling with the craziest dizzy sensation I have ever experienced.  Perhaps it was my own fault for making a joke that I was pregnant on the blog---I felt pregnant all over again, but WAY worse.  It seemed as though I was on a treadmill/cruise ship/merry go round all at the same time.  I even had to leave work one day---praying that I would make it home safely.  I was scared to even hold Emily for fear of dropping her.  I started going to a chiropractor on Friday and slowly but surely I am finally feeling some relief.  

I never knew how exhausting it could be working full time and being a "full-time" mom after work.  It feels like it never ends and I know that this is just the beginning.  Emily still isn't sleeping through the night---or at least my definition of sleeping through the night.  She goes at least 5 hours, but often 6 hours and once and a while she will go 8 hours.  I literally have less than an hour in a day to do something for me---which usually means sitting on the couch with a bowl of ice cream....yeah, that will make the remaining prego pounds melt off!  ha!  

Okay, this may sound like a pity party post---it isn't meant to be.  It is meant for me to proclaim that in the midst of my extreme exhaustion, I am so in love with this little girl.  She has truly stolen my heart.  I can't go 5 minutes without thinking of her and getting some goofy little smirk on my face.  Her big open mouth smile brings so much joy, her funny little bubble/spitting makes me smile, her flailing arms and kicking legs make me chuckle and her too tired to do anything but lay on my chest makes me melt.  This love--it is like no other.