Tantrum City

We have moved to Tantrum City. I will accept any housewarming gifts.

I am so tired. Kinley is not an easy baby (in my opinion). She grunts a lot, cries a lot and doesn't sleep enough (especially at night) so when tantrums from Emily come from nowhere it exhausts me.

Yesterday we went to the park with my family and friends and we had a great time. When we headed back to the car, Emily was walking with me just fine and then all of a sudden stops in her tracks and screams at the top of her lungs. I had Kinley wrapped around me so I can't carry Emily so my sister volunteers. She screamed all the way to the car. She screamed the entire time I was putting her in the car and half way home. It's in those moments that I feel like I don't know what I could have done to make any of it better. She doesn't use her words she just screams.

We have moved to Tantrum City.

Right now we are on time-out number three in 20 minutes. I am being tested to the nth degree and I am not a fan. This whole having a newborn and two year old is tough...

Easter in Pictures

Ready, Hike

First Easter Basket

Kinley's didn't fit in a basket...

So sweet---after naptime---wasn't quite awake

Oops, picked the wrong picture, but I don't have minutes to spare to fix it! ha! Here's my two girls on Easter (again, after naptime so Emily's clip is out)

Easter Egg Hunt at Grandma and Papa's house

Kinley got in on the action....(the purple egg next to her hand)

Reunited and it feels so good

Kinley's first visit to Disneyland---let the magic begin! (I think the magic started immediately because Kinley actually slept through the entire visit.)

Love them (Brian and Emily, not Chip and Dale)

Easter Egg Dippin' Treats

Family visits

Emily and Kinley had lots of family visits this past week. She got a visit from Grandma JoJo, Auntie Alyse and Grandma Wolf. Emily loved having someone else besides me in the house. I think the names "auntie lease" and "mommy" might be tied for the number of times used while Auntie was here.

Grandma JoJo, Emily and Kinley

Gma JoJo bought this book for Emily and they read it immediately

Grandma Wolf holding Kinley for the first time

Auntie Alyse brought a book with her too and of course, they read it right away as well

PB and J moustache...

Grandma Wolf and Emily making lizard faces

Book time before naptime...Grandma Wolf bought a book for every week that I was pregnant with Emily. This book was from that collection...

Perfectly imperfect, but Emily doesn't care...

I have a desire to be the perfect, creative mother, but I tend to fall short a lot on that. The good news is, Emily doesn't know any different. I knew St. Patrick's Day was coming up and I thought about it quite a bit before hand; however, when March 17th arrived I had completely forgotten about it. So, what's a mom to do? Make some sugar cookies and pull out the green icing (meant for Christmas with tree sprinkles and all) and go to town. Yes, she is in her pjs...

The other day I was getting ready and I heard a clicking sound. I looked behind me and Emily had a pair of my heels on. Sometimes when I show excitement toward her, I cover my mouth....looks like she picked up on that behavior.

Hopeful

God is faithful. I know this.

On Saturday my family decided to head to church in Huntington Beach so we could be "lazy" on Sunday if we wanted to be. Emily went to "sunday school" while Brian, Kinley and I sat in church with my mom/dad/sister. You have to understand that growing up in my family meant many hours spent at the church. In fact when my dad first started working at FCCHB Kristi and I would take sleeping bags to take naps at the church in his office....that's how long our day would be there. I can count on one maybe two hands how many times my nuclear family have sat in church together. It was special for me.

Two of the songs we sang that night in worship were two of the songs I kept singing to myself when I thought I wasn't pregnant. I prayed a lot for this little being that didn't yet exist....per a false negative pregnancy test. When I found out I was pregnant a couple days later these songs were sung out of praise. Anyway, I of course teared up a lot.

I love my little family. I want more than anything to stay home with my girls. I'm DESPERATE to find work from home or even part-time work outside the home. I'm grateful for my job in the midst of the recession, so I'm trying to be content, but I am also praying for an opportunity to be here for my kids....

God is faithful. I know this.